Echoes
rare and unusual in that sense
Along the way to learning how to receive from myself, and through such learning and loving with wmen, I had a secret pleasure: men loved to suck me off. They made it seem wholly natural, I now know, because it was. I never had to ask. I might not have thought of it, if others had not expressed their desire.
I learned to relax and have my orgasm be really good to convey that pleasure to my partner. The maleness of it all made it such a differently emotional experience…rare and unusual in that sense, a different feeling mouth, whiskery cheeks. I mentioned Richard, who would slip a dildo up my ass and then suck me. Penetration is inherently submissive for me. So he had me with my emotions deep and soft, opened up and filled up inside and knowing I would wrap my ejaculation and orgasm around my core.
Richard would lick my ass wide and deep with his rough tongue before penetrating me. I think he knew I would produce so much more semen that way. Then as he slipped the dildo up and in he would encourage me, be fucked, and lick around the tight rim where the silicone met my flesh. And in that spot, just the notion that he was about to gulp my cum filled me with precipitous bliss. He was getting me ready to cum into his mouth. Now there is a delightful way to be used. I would let my pleasure out so gorgeously and be received.
And then, in other moments, in other times and places, with other people, I knew what he wanted. I knew what was really going to happen was: he would be feeling, seeing and knowing about my mouth full of myself.
Even if I had just drank him. I could never feel bad about denying him. I knew what I needed and in a sense, why my sexuality existed.
+Today there is one person in my life I would never deny.
Thanks for that clarity. Planrted some seeds for the witnessing request. Not hopeful that they will sprout without some nurturence in the near future.
The book of blue has been a gateway for the realization of my bi-sexuality. I have had engaging fantasies for sometime. My solo journey for the past 16 years into the infinite capacity of my feminine mystery has awakened my potential. Since I was 9 and was initiated to the feeling of cock in my mouth by Raymond my neighborhood sitter, it has laid latent. Transitting Pluto opposite natal Sun has revealed the scary and envigorating possibilty to externalize this identity. Your journey, sincerity and transparency has been an inspiration.