So the plan for this session is what?
I’m going to show a small gathering of men on zoom, some of whose faces I can see and others (or perhaps all) who will be anonymous, inviable and
tease out my thirst, admit to my thirst, lick my
dry cum, maybe beg for my own semen…mm hmm…
Show my face in slow self penetration.
feel my face my eyes shown during my stretch and drop onto penetration.
voice expressed to be heard
i stay here and melt open as my waterbulb fills and
then my great hot core pulse rises up from my abyss in throbs so good i
show
my face as I let go
known, and then eat from wherever I catch
slow down my breath and
show my full mouth
This part is very important. Have we ever talked about this? Do you love to? I am going to…and then swallow and then
Stay with myself and openly go through my feelings of doubt or shame or joy and freedom.
and you will…be seeing and knowing
Do we show your face or leave you hidden the better to invoke the presence of the men? I want need you to feel my deep craving for male attention. And approval. I know you’ll know what I’m feeling. I know that you do.
I know you’re all about and encouraging of me to suck in the semen of other men.
Mm hmmmmmm I know. I think I affirm myself i now
The photo above the same day as this happening. The penis belongs to Wim. The woman is Lola. In showing this photo initially it was easier to reveal myself with Lola spreading her legs in a guesture of delighted openness and submission. Hoping maybe she would distract you. Even now it makes it easier to share the idea of me/who i am when about to suck wim…that is the very moment before my lipse touch his penis…intending and i did and i drank deeply my throat throbbing with his abundanat ejaculatory pulses swallowing so naturally so good
eons ago …
… i felt mirroring out could lead to sucking as way of being
maybe all mirrage, frankincense and mirrors
taking my Bright Orange Guitar to cbgb’s in a few days.
pps to you whom reading i feel so so so so so so good about opening up fully about sucking off other men ... i suspected as i surrendered cunt and embrced first mirror celibacy and then wholly open mirror celibacy that being bukkake boy was in the dna i knew might slip cus what is the sum of surrendering cunt before the world and taking on myself....where is there to go...though atm i remain a mirror celibate self cum drinkier...all this queer stuff is pure fantasy and verges on violatng chastity my desire is so fresh — — — it was a step though i invite to you know that i invite men to masturbate into my mouth. not a blowjob thats another delight. this delight is my mouth being gifted with the semen of self pleasure and drinkng the sound of his voice. pure total fantasy. the only cum i drink is my own and the only man's face i see speak and orgasm.
ps to Duck Pond Girl
...we have even talked about doing this in person in some way - here would be a good place for that. In summer it could be outside. I really truly want to experience orgasm and self cum drinking simultaneously with several other men. i want to have the conversation....leading in and throuout. open open open me