p/s/ —

to i do understand & now admit

ps — i get that going through my babyish begging craving confessing hoping cuntrifice openly shown in all my mixed emotions is part of my process…

ok this is the part i’m doing. yes i’m struggling and all the woem know i want to smell them and…

allthirst funnels into selfthirst…so just do it...

btw I met someone today who I know, at least, I may invite him to masturbate into my mouth.

I will say to him what I want and let…whatever…happen. I also understand that my cunthirst regression may be a hint that if I drink another man’s semen I will slip or burst into a new cosmos. i think

i am saying it out loud in new ways hearing myself for the first time, so good, efcjustbewith your thirstfor other men…on my knees mouth open i can just say this…

I don’t need phantasy!

Saying what I want will be wholly fulfilling of its own. I am ready. And so what if like…I do suck him off and oh dear so good and I never look or feel back…I know that’s possible and a source of my inner drama. I’m mature enough to know that when I am gulping a man’s semen I won’t be thinking about any of that.

ps — i will keep my promise to myself to lick his ass before i drink his cum. iknowiknowiknow i need this & be known for this. mmmm hmmmmm so good.