bei was thinking of this at first one way and now think of it another way. Northern Lights. Friday I did the first-ever pwfm masturnation music special. I talked about phantasy-out-loud and mirroring. I talked a lot about sharing masturbation in couples (get off with your bf or gf or spouse) or/and in groups. I did describe learning how to get fucked from Richard; I said I learned how to touch another man’s penis. I didn’t say I masturbated with his semen and fell in love with that particular act. I did not say I am masturbation celibate. I did not describe my delightful self thirst drama. Not a hunt of the existence of cum mirrors or cumshells. I did not talk about (the pleasure of) weaning off of yoni to stoke my selfthirst and melt into goddess reverence. I did not deliciously thank every woman who has said no. I did not play Mommy Imbolc (my full on gratitude orgrasm); I did not make the connection between lacking breast milk and drinking my cum. And I was pretty cunthappy for someone who has recently pictured himself as the official recipient of expert bukkake. Seventy ejaculations! milked into Silvani’s bowl and I said I am the bowl! Oh god. I love the idea of that so much I could strip and do it. Yes a little cunt-accentuated presentation given all that. It would have much to play Mommy-Imbolc for the general public of my world, even through that’s the heart of the matter. What I did was say that this space exits and invited requests to be here. Below photo of me created in Berne, Switzerland by Maria Henzler…so gorgeous to feel her Little Leoness documenting me reaching into my fulfillment. what I will tell you is a photograph of my patient thirst. the expresson on my face is one of knowing that fulfillement is coming. wherever you may be in the world, in the future or in your state of mind, i’m a mirror celibate selfcumslut.
Re the image below…the list of names were the women and Neal I had sent below Thank you Mommy audio to. Then finally to claire and moments later to my mom.
I truly want everyone to hear this.
Thank You Mommy - Imbolc
This occurred during my writing of the original ‘bare essence’ during the season of Imbolc with the Sun crossing the midpoint of Aquarius. Venus was conjunct Neptune and the lunar node in Pisces. It is a recording of a spontaneous altered-state healing / channeling that I had the presence of mind, at least, to…
The Bowl
In this scene, Silvani guides more than 70 ejaculations into her bowl. She seems to like when the men mostly bring themselves up and then brings them off. She loves the feeling of the penis throbbing in her hand. I understand*. Such occurs over and over, some mist of a fantasy realized. Silvani is the bare essence of desire and nobody p…
Book of Blue | Bare Essence
I had tumbled back into some new gape of the ancient dream, deceived in believing I was deceived, desiring for the prison of want, searching for some gender between the oppressed and the oppressor… — efc, December 1988
mirror to my face and,,,helped me stabilize in my self awareness…i did not mention my teenage noctournal emissions down my throat by the mircle of astral dream.