what i am alluding to as previously too embarrassing to be explicit about...is my thirst drama with cunt...and having created understandings with women to deny myself...and the ultimate joy being giving into my choice. I also want to say more about how the cum mirror transformed into self yoni with the help of women spreading their legs into my spattered mess...and slowly i converted cunnilingus to cum mirrors. however obviously i am still seeming to be desperate for cunt. this is what I haven't really written about...
here's another one. on my last few female lovers i took to licking thieir asshole more than their pussy. oh so good, just the right tongue of love for her psyche. and while im making love to her womanness (swirling her ass as she masturbates)...there is something androgynous about licking ass. i have never licked a man's asshole. however i have an outstanding promise to my self to do so when I anticpate I might drink his semen. i can herenow say i want to do this with every cell&nerve. mmmhmmm i want to tonguefuck a man and then invite him to fuck my mouth and throat. or if he feels i'm not deserving or ready to be penetrated like that...to jack off onto my tongue. i have become so very open about my tendency to swallow myself....and I'm delishing in splitting open my psyche into the casual discussion of my being a semen cleaner upper. i am sure i can...om mi...find a gay party where I invite multiple men to feed me. yes i want to be that naked
and some topics that have been difficult to express are now bubbling to the surface. certain matters that were previously too embarrassing to talk about and now i must.
what i am alluding to as previously too embarrassing to be explicit about...is my thirst drama with cunt...and having created understandings with women to deny myself...and the ultimate joy being giving into my choice. I also want to say more about how the cum mirror transformed into self yoni with the help of women spreading their legs into my spattered mess...and slowly i converted cunnilingus to cum mirrors. however obviously i am still seeming to be desperate for cunt. this is what I haven't really written about...
here's another one. on my last few female lovers i took to licking thieir asshole more than their pussy. oh so good, just the right tongue of love for her psyche. and while im making love to her womanness (swirling her ass as she masturbates)...there is something androgynous about licking ass. i have never licked a man's asshole. however i have an outstanding promise to my self to do so when I anticpate I might drink his semen. i can herenow say i want to do this with every cell&nerve. mmmhmmm i want to tonguefuck a man and then invite him to fuck my mouth and throat. or if he feels i'm not deserving or ready to be penetrated like that...to jack off onto my tongue. i have become so very open about my tendency to swallow myself....and I'm delishing in splitting open my psyche into the casual discussion of my being a semen cleaner upper. i am sure i can...om mi...find a gay party where I invite multiple men to feed me. yes i want to be that naked
Per your comment ".if everyone knows, then this is who I am" You are who you are even if everyone knows or does not know. You be you.
it's a gradual relaxation process kay...yes in truth it's all about me alone...but it's sure yummy to be in the space of your awareness.
I understand that.
It's deep to be expressing this before a live audience kay...to feel for the words and just enjoy being known and i know...understood.
Yes, deep, scary, vunerable and exciting.
and some topics that have been difficult to express are now bubbling to the surface. certain matters that were previously too embarrassing to talk about and now i must.
I do see and feel that development in you. Congratulations on yoir journey.